Conversations with God
I think God really wants to have a conversation with us...
Not just a one way conversation with us asking him for stuff you know.... don't get me wrong cause I think it is ok to ask. cause it is biblical (ask and you shall receive seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be open).
When I was younger and wasn't bothered with the cares of this life, it was so easy for me to just sit and wait on the Lord to speak to me in that still small voice.
Today as a 31 year old married woman with no children but a deep desire to have many and have been unable to for the past 5 years, with a car payment, a mortgage and student loans to pay with only one paycheck sustaining us...it can be a little more difficult to have a two way conversation with God when bombarded with so much need.
This week i have been sick with a bad sinus cold...not able to breath, talk much and sleeping lots, sneezing and coughing more and loaded with lots of drugs i had an epiphany today when I came across this video....
My conversations with God lately have been one sided and I need to allow him to speak to me like i remember he used to before i let my fears, guilt and perceptions in the way.
Several years ago in the most deepest darkest time in my life when I was going through what felt like hell on earth, My God, My Saviour picked me up out of my mess i made and reminded me He has a purpose for me to fullfill. i (as are you) was put on this earth and created to fullfull a purpose that He for ordained before he even formed the universe and I had allowed my self to get in the way of What he wanted for me.
So Today I commit to having a two way conversation with God and quit trying to fix everything and just continue to seek him and allow him to order my steps.
Lord I pray that you open my ears to hear my eyes to see and my heart to receive the truth you speak to me and that you continue to empower me to be the woman of God your created me to be! in Jesus Name!